Where have I been you ask? Busy with my life! School, competitions, sick kids, housecleaning, and the never ending piles of laundry! I have written the start of a few blogs and never finished them. I have managed to get to 144 lbs and maintain. I really need to get motivated to try harder to exercise...but we all know how that gets. I am not eating uber healthy but I am making wise food choices and watching what I eat.
Today we are enjoying our first snow of the season. If it is snowing before Thanksgiving we will likely see more this year. Which is fine in my book. As long as its not like the great snow of 2008! While it was exciting to have that much snow and see the blizzard like conditions and be "stuck" for 2 weeks, our area is not equipped for such a thing and the roads were horrible!!!
With 4 kids sickness seems inevitable and it is also seeming to be a never ending story around here. The coughing is so gross and is horrible this yr. So far all the kids have had it now. 2 have had viral bronchitis, 1 just a really long cough, 1 with a sinus infection, and now a feverish few days are added to the mix! Ikes, can it get any worse??? This is 2 months so far. And lets not talk about the diarrhea that accompanies antibiotics...icky. So that's the "exciting" run down of our lives over here.
Whats on my mind has been a heck of a lot. Not so great either. I get in these modes where I am somewhat depressed. I am not sure if its the weather or the staying home so long without work. Which I totally love staying home. I feel like the manager of my own company, no boss no ridiculous coworkers, no leaving the house...which also means many pj days =). I have been thinking a lot, which is never good, of all the relationships in my life. I am struggling with a lot of it. My marriage is pretty great, yeah, we have some little issues but nothing I haven't been able to handle. I have a very small handful of friends I don't seem to be having issues with either. In fact I recently made up with one. WE had a falling out a few years back and let me tell you it is a great feeling to make up with a friend! So, with that being said, why are there people that act like your best friend and then suddenly they aren't??? I am not talking about the few relationships you have where no matter where you are in life you can pick up the phone and it was like old times. I am talking about people you shared everything with did things with and the second one thing changes they disappear. With no explanation and no turning back. This happened when I married my husband. I was friends with a huge group of people at my job. I had shared many struggles with them. The second I was happy they slowly started not inviting me anywhere, had secrets I was not allowed in on, and it hurt. I have done this to a few people before but I feel for a good cause. These people I abandoned were people who never took any good advice, never grew up, or went a completely different path than me. They chose to do things that I believe are wrong and therefore was not going to continue to allow them to pressure me or tempt me. So I play with that idea but finally in my things were good I was happy and they were not there for me. I cant seem to let go of it no matter how hard I try. Or how about the people that hurt me the most in my life. I cant seem to let go of that either. Sometimes I don't think about it at all. But when I see or hear that their lives have gone on and they seem to have no remorse it hurts just as bad.
One of these people in particular is the father of my daughter. He has seen her 4 times in her entire life. He is into drugs and been in and out of prison and is totally disgusting. He also beat the crap out of me. He didn't even want her in the first place. I have no desire to have him in her life. I like things the way they are. But, she deals with issues of abandonment and hurt. She will always grow up knowing that someone cared so little for a part of himself that he hurt her. I recently found out that he has a son and a girlfriend he claims to love. And it hurts. How can I let that go? He is living life like he didn't do anything wrong, basically started over and is hurting us in the process. Yes, I know that I am letting him "win" if I feel hurt but I can just ignore it when i look into his face everyday. She looks like him and she even acts like him. I know I need to let go and let God, but its hard.
And how about those parents? I don't truly understand mine at all. I struggle with trying to honor them and still keep boundaries. I have a lot of anger built up. I still get hurtful words from them. And its true what they say...actions speak louder than words. There are things that have been done that hurt. I fully believe that besides my uncle I am the only one in my family that craves a close family. I got anything but. Whats sad is I have 9 uncles some grandparents and a few cousins and a handful of aunts...that's pretty huge not to be closer! And when those dragging feelings set in I struggle with the hurt. I dont know if I will ever fully get over this.
So with all that being said, does anyone know a little hypnotism to make me forget? =) It does feel good to write it down. Other than that life is truly good. I am thankful for a lot. Here are some things I am thankful for that include those I have been hurt by. Its good to remember the good not the bad, right?
1. I am thankful for my daughter. Without her I might have died from a drug overdose. She makes our world crazy but without her we would be bored.
3. I am thankful my mom dragged me to WA, I met my husband here. And I have a whole lotta love from him. I also gained a bigger closer family and an adorable son.
4. Facebook. I know silly right? But I have reconnected with many of my uncles and aunts and cousins. And its about the only time my sister will "talk" to me.
5. For my hurtful past. Without it I wouldn't be able to protect my kids and teach them what I have learned. I wouldn't appreciate my husband as much as I do. And I wouldn't be where I am today.
So thank you Willie, for my beautiful daughter. You are missing out. You don't get to hear her sing or play piano, you don't get to see her be a good big sister, and you don't get her hugs. But I do.
Thank you to everyone who hurt me. I have a greater appreciation for caring and loving people.
Thanks to my parents for dragging me as far away from family as possible so that I know how important it is to surround my children with their step dads family so they get to enjoy that part in life. Thanks for the insensitivity to me and my feelings so that I may find my MIL incredibly wonderful and have great conversations with someone so sweet. Most people don't like theirs and I love mine!!
Thank you to all the men who hurt me. I must say that going through all that was truly a little slice of hell, but I now have my own slice of heaven right here on earth. I appreciate even the smallest things that my husband does because of it.
Sunday, November 21, 2010
Friday, October 15, 2010
Partial Brain Function
Well, I did not get to post my 2nd part to my last post. I will soon. I was having computer issues and then lost my train of thought. It is Friday and as promised here is my weight, 146... I did not maintain my loss from last week. I know that I am giving it the best I can right now. I have a busy schedule and a tight budget for groceries that does not really permit me to go completely and uberly healthy. Basically I am maintaining my weight with my diet. But I have children and i will not force them to eat uber healthy. Our diet is not bad and I am happy with it.
I want to share with you a recipe that I used tonight. Its delicious.
Turkey Chili Burgers
1lb ground turkey
1 cup cooked or canned black beans
half an onion
1 jalapeno
however much garlic you want
2 tbs chili powder
1 tbs thyme
1/2 tbs cumin
saute onion till soft add chopped jalapeno, garlic and cumin
after that is done add to the beans and mush mush mush
next, add seasonings and turkey and mix well
shape into patties and broil
make sure you cook both sides
enjoy with a whole wheat bun some spinach and salsa is recommended (but I don't use it)
I paired it with a broccoli salad recipe I got from a friend.
half an apple peeled and chopped into small cubes
1/4 cup of raisins
1/4 onion chopped (optional)
1 broccoli head
next mix 1.5 tbs mayo with 1.5 tbs orange juice dab of salt and pepper
throw this in and mix
This dinner is quick and healthy and delicious. Love it!
Here are a few more goals
11. Wake up 3 times a week at 530 am to get my exercise on.
12. Only get on the computer once a day unless absolutely necessary. (i usually jump on when I have a free minute, and then do nothing on it but check facebook or email)
13. Read one book a month
Only 3 this time, I am losing my concentration. I always think of more and I have more written down I just forget to bring them with me to the computer.
I want to share with you a recipe that I used tonight. Its delicious.
Turkey Chili Burgers
1lb ground turkey
1 cup cooked or canned black beans
half an onion
1 jalapeno
however much garlic you want
2 tbs chili powder
1 tbs thyme
1/2 tbs cumin
saute onion till soft add chopped jalapeno, garlic and cumin
after that is done add to the beans and mush mush mush
next, add seasonings and turkey and mix well
shape into patties and broil
make sure you cook both sides
enjoy with a whole wheat bun some spinach and salsa is recommended (but I don't use it)
I paired it with a broccoli salad recipe I got from a friend.
half an apple peeled and chopped into small cubes
1/4 cup of raisins
1/4 onion chopped (optional)
1 broccoli head
next mix 1.5 tbs mayo with 1.5 tbs orange juice dab of salt and pepper
throw this in and mix
This dinner is quick and healthy and delicious. Love it!
Here are a few more goals
11. Wake up 3 times a week at 530 am to get my exercise on.
12. Only get on the computer once a day unless absolutely necessary. (i usually jump on when I have a free minute, and then do nothing on it but check facebook or email)
13. Read one book a month
Only 3 this time, I am losing my concentration. I always think of more and I have more written down I just forget to bring them with me to the computer.
Sunday, October 10, 2010
Living the Bible Way part 1
I grew up in the UPC, United Pentecostal Church. I remember growing up was being uncomfortable in my stockings and dresses and shoes. I remember rules but no explanation except "the bible says". I dont know if thats just how it used to be in this denomination, just the string of churches, or with my parents. But I do know that God stuck with me. I always knew that God was the only way for me. But when my parents divorced and backslid...I followed. Of course I did, I was a new teenager. With no Godly direction and all the influence of the world in my face, God was far behind in my mind. He was actually in front of me the whole time and it just took a while to see it.
The neightbor kids were "cool". They skipped school, they drank, smoked and had sex. I wanted to try everything they did. 6 mths of this and I got pregnant. I was 15. I wish I would have stopped and smelled the roses that God was sending me then. I lost majority of my friends and the only ones I seemed to make were Christian girls. I occasionally went to a youth group. I still believed and thought that was enough. But I let it get to me again. Love was the influence. I truly, to this day admit, I was in love. But he fell in love with money and fun. The higher he got the more I got hurt. The infidelity, the abuse, and the drugs were a bad nightmare for me. When he was home and high I got high with him, in hopes that he would love me back. I finally got the guts to call it quits after getting pregnant with my 2nd daughter. But I was in search for love.
I still never took the whole opportunity to go after God even when he was right in my face. I started going to church with a friend who never seemed to give up on me. But at that time I felt like the love of a real man would serve me better. I was determined to figure it out on my own. Big mistake.
Soon I was pregnant with a 3rd and hopeful. When she was about a yr old I decided it was time to go back to church. It was then that I realized you have to search for God and he will show you exactly who he is. But I was miserable. And boy I had no idea what was about to happen. I wont go into detail but God went back on the back burner and life went haywire. Depressed and feeling alone I just stopped God. But truth be told I always knew he was still there. I struggled with things in my past feeling as though God would never send me to heaven.
During all this I had the opportunity to go to the D.C area. We had some old family friends there and their daughter was getting married. They are pastors. One day the pastor sat me down and said I have a word from God. He read Psalms 149:4. He translated it to me that God doesnt care what it is that I think will never be forgiven for. He has forgiven me. WOW!!! Powerful. For a few weeks I was on air. But I slowly in what I feel was the lowest point in my life, fell back into the arms of the devil.
I finally got to move forward with my life and with that came a new attitude. Things slowly started looking better for me, even when most of what was happening around me wasnt going well. I started praying and reading my bible. I started inserting church a little more and then finally after getting married and having another baby, I got back into church. I have learned that its not about religion and rituals. Its about a relationship with God, its about devouring the word for yourself. I am soaking it in. I am striving to learn all I can. I am hungry to learn more each day. And tomorrow I will share my thoughts, confusions, joys, and triumphs.
The neightbor kids were "cool". They skipped school, they drank, smoked and had sex. I wanted to try everything they did. 6 mths of this and I got pregnant. I was 15. I wish I would have stopped and smelled the roses that God was sending me then. I lost majority of my friends and the only ones I seemed to make were Christian girls. I occasionally went to a youth group. I still believed and thought that was enough. But I let it get to me again. Love was the influence. I truly, to this day admit, I was in love. But he fell in love with money and fun. The higher he got the more I got hurt. The infidelity, the abuse, and the drugs were a bad nightmare for me. When he was home and high I got high with him, in hopes that he would love me back. I finally got the guts to call it quits after getting pregnant with my 2nd daughter. But I was in search for love.
I still never took the whole opportunity to go after God even when he was right in my face. I started going to church with a friend who never seemed to give up on me. But at that time I felt like the love of a real man would serve me better. I was determined to figure it out on my own. Big mistake.
Soon I was pregnant with a 3rd and hopeful. When she was about a yr old I decided it was time to go back to church. It was then that I realized you have to search for God and he will show you exactly who he is. But I was miserable. And boy I had no idea what was about to happen. I wont go into detail but God went back on the back burner and life went haywire. Depressed and feeling alone I just stopped God. But truth be told I always knew he was still there. I struggled with things in my past feeling as though God would never send me to heaven.
During all this I had the opportunity to go to the D.C area. We had some old family friends there and their daughter was getting married. They are pastors. One day the pastor sat me down and said I have a word from God. He read Psalms 149:4. He translated it to me that God doesnt care what it is that I think will never be forgiven for. He has forgiven me. WOW!!! Powerful. For a few weeks I was on air. But I slowly in what I feel was the lowest point in my life, fell back into the arms of the devil.
I finally got to move forward with my life and with that came a new attitude. Things slowly started looking better for me, even when most of what was happening around me wasnt going well. I started praying and reading my bible. I started inserting church a little more and then finally after getting married and having another baby, I got back into church. I have learned that its not about religion and rituals. Its about a relationship with God, its about devouring the word for yourself. I am soaking it in. I am striving to learn all I can. I am hungry to learn more each day. And tomorrow I will share my thoughts, confusions, joys, and triumphs.
Friday, October 8, 2010
Lost Weight
Exciting news here. Conviently after stopping my birth control pill a week ago I lost 3 lbs!!! I have been super busy as usual, got 1 walk in and yoga yesterday. I have been eating healthy still. And bam 3 lbs! I have been eating healthy and all this since May and lost 4 lbs the whole time. I certainly blame it on the bcp!!!
Anyways, on our friendly competition we are finally moving in the right direction. ALL of us. Last week was a little bumming seeing the guys drop weight. But this week us ladies are finally in it!!! Definitely a little more motivation. I'm excited.
When I have time to exercise the following is what I like to do to get moving.
running/jogging/walking
pilates
yoga
Denise Austin indoor walk
Jillian Michaels 30 day shred
zumba
random dancing with baby and kids
wii fit
just dance (wii game)
bollywood dance (fit tv)
I am open to all other ideas. I want to try Golds Gym on the wii. I have to keep it interesting or I lose interest.
Things here are crazy. I have been extremely busy. With cheer, soccer, school, housework, house loan stuff, and baby my world has gone completely upside down. And we still have missed practices, house is still messy, and things don't feel like they are moving. How does that happen? I guess that's life! But I did knock a few things off my to do list this week and that's always great.
As far as the house buying process goes, we will find out in December if we are qualified for the loan we are trying to get. Long time, I know. I am trying to keep my hopes up about my house but also trying to tell myself its okay if we lose it there will be something better! That, my friends, is hard. I am worried about my credit also. Its not where I think it should be and we are trying to take care of that hopefully they see that effort. My husband is the one that works and he has a good score so hopefully that is enough.
We experienced some feelings towards the whole credit thing this week that kind of hurt. I think it effected my husband a little more. Years ago, when I was younger, I was offered 2 credit cards. I told myself they would be used for important things only. But, they got the best of me. I couldn't pay them down. Being young and feeling like I would never be able to pay it off, I filed bankruptcy. I now regret it. I didn't know anything about fixing my credit. I had no good advice around me. And I feel as though I stole from them now. But truthfully as broke as I have been in the past I don't know how I would have payed them off. I don't live beyond my means. I don't buy extras. I vowed never to do that again. I bought a car and have faithfully paid on it. Minus 2 mths when I wasn't sure how I was going to feed myself I was late on my payments. I had moved to Texas and payed off everything but my car. I moved into an apartment. And both jobs cut my hours. I couldn't find a decent paying job to save my life. And of course, when I didn't have insurance, I got sick and had to go to the hospital. That has happened to me twice, by the way!!!
Before I met him, my husband was single and made good money for a single guy. He spent his money however he wanted and his credit wasn't perfect but not to bad. He doesn't like people judging you on anything but who you are inside. He didn't care if he was late on a payment. He knew he was going to pay it. He never thought it would catch up to him. I know it sounds silly but I guess I understand him more than most would/do.
Then we got together. We had 2 incomes and a load of bills. And he had credit cards *gasp*. I had vowed not to have any. So my goal was to pay them off. I slowly got to paying off small things that we had. And I started working on paying down the credit cards. His credit has jumped up 150 points in 1 year!!! Mine is NOT where I need or want it to be. But, it's very obvious that we have been working on our credit. We are good people. It makes me sad that because of other peoples failures, because of greediness, that we are now judged by a number! If its obvious that I am "fixing" my credit then why be mean?
Currently we are a 1 income family. I have mastered our budget. I pay on time and pay down on our credit. Every chance I get I pay off the things on my credit. These things didn't get there from me being irresponsible, it got there because I got sick, and because of the failing economy and lack of work offered. I did not put too much on my plate. I was cautious. I am a good person. The way some talk to you when they read your score, is ridiculous. Mine has also come up 150 points this year and its just under 600 and in about a month and a half it will be higher. I don't understand this way of thinking I guess. And others are ruining it for those of us who do try.
So, my continued goals are to drop the weight number and heighten the credit score....life can be confusing sometimes! But without the bumps life might get boring. So, I will keep doing what I know is right!!!
Anyways, on our friendly competition we are finally moving in the right direction. ALL of us. Last week was a little bumming seeing the guys drop weight. But this week us ladies are finally in it!!! Definitely a little more motivation. I'm excited.
When I have time to exercise the following is what I like to do to get moving.
running/jogging/walking
pilates
yoga
Denise Austin indoor walk
Jillian Michaels 30 day shred
zumba
random dancing with baby and kids
wii fit
just dance (wii game)
bollywood dance (fit tv)
I am open to all other ideas. I want to try Golds Gym on the wii. I have to keep it interesting or I lose interest.
Things here are crazy. I have been extremely busy. With cheer, soccer, school, housework, house loan stuff, and baby my world has gone completely upside down. And we still have missed practices, house is still messy, and things don't feel like they are moving. How does that happen? I guess that's life! But I did knock a few things off my to do list this week and that's always great.
As far as the house buying process goes, we will find out in December if we are qualified for the loan we are trying to get. Long time, I know. I am trying to keep my hopes up about my house but also trying to tell myself its okay if we lose it there will be something better! That, my friends, is hard. I am worried about my credit also. Its not where I think it should be and we are trying to take care of that hopefully they see that effort. My husband is the one that works and he has a good score so hopefully that is enough.
We experienced some feelings towards the whole credit thing this week that kind of hurt. I think it effected my husband a little more. Years ago, when I was younger, I was offered 2 credit cards. I told myself they would be used for important things only. But, they got the best of me. I couldn't pay them down. Being young and feeling like I would never be able to pay it off, I filed bankruptcy. I now regret it. I didn't know anything about fixing my credit. I had no good advice around me. And I feel as though I stole from them now. But truthfully as broke as I have been in the past I don't know how I would have payed them off. I don't live beyond my means. I don't buy extras. I vowed never to do that again. I bought a car and have faithfully paid on it. Minus 2 mths when I wasn't sure how I was going to feed myself I was late on my payments. I had moved to Texas and payed off everything but my car. I moved into an apartment. And both jobs cut my hours. I couldn't find a decent paying job to save my life. And of course, when I didn't have insurance, I got sick and had to go to the hospital. That has happened to me twice, by the way!!!
Before I met him, my husband was single and made good money for a single guy. He spent his money however he wanted and his credit wasn't perfect but not to bad. He doesn't like people judging you on anything but who you are inside. He didn't care if he was late on a payment. He knew he was going to pay it. He never thought it would catch up to him. I know it sounds silly but I guess I understand him more than most would/do.
Then we got together. We had 2 incomes and a load of bills. And he had credit cards *gasp*. I had vowed not to have any. So my goal was to pay them off. I slowly got to paying off small things that we had. And I started working on paying down the credit cards. His credit has jumped up 150 points in 1 year!!! Mine is NOT where I need or want it to be. But, it's very obvious that we have been working on our credit. We are good people. It makes me sad that because of other peoples failures, because of greediness, that we are now judged by a number! If its obvious that I am "fixing" my credit then why be mean?
Currently we are a 1 income family. I have mastered our budget. I pay on time and pay down on our credit. Every chance I get I pay off the things on my credit. These things didn't get there from me being irresponsible, it got there because I got sick, and because of the failing economy and lack of work offered. I did not put too much on my plate. I was cautious. I am a good person. The way some talk to you when they read your score, is ridiculous. Mine has also come up 150 points this year and its just under 600 and in about a month and a half it will be higher. I don't understand this way of thinking I guess. And others are ruining it for those of us who do try.
So, my continued goals are to drop the weight number and heighten the credit score....life can be confusing sometimes! But without the bumps life might get boring. So, I will keep doing what I know is right!!!
Friday, October 1, 2010
So...
I haven't lost or gained anything this week. I say this is because I was not exercising. I am finding it harder and harder to get up early. And during the day there is pretty much no good time to get moving. I did walk, yesterday, to the school. But the good news is my husband is getting on board even more than I imagined. I thought he said yes to a friendly competition just to make me happy. After he lost 2 lbs just not eating junk he really jumped on board. Yesterday he suggested we go to bed earlier and he will get up with me and exercize!!! He also asked me to pack him a healthy lunch everyday! Trust me this is big. He works an awful lot and stays busy from 8 am till about 8 pm. All week he worried about turning his work into exercise. =) I am proud of him and excited that he is willing to help motivate me a little more.
On some more exciting news. We started the process for buying a home this week. Oh man am I far beyond excited. My BIL is an awesome realtor. I am glad we have someone we trust helping us out! We did things a little backwards and already found a home we LOVE. We saw a couple and then BAM! This house is perfect for us. It has 5 beds. Its 3000 sq feet and a super great price. Its 1.28 acres also. Its far enough out to be country but close enough I don't have to drive an hour to get to town. Its closer to Joe's work and still in a good school district. It also has an unfinished basement with tons of possibility.
The scariest part of this whole thing is the loan we are going for takes a while. =/ So I'm nervous I will get my heart broken. But this loan will save us a lot of money. Anyways, I am just excited to get the process done. I am so glad we finally get to own. I will be doing lots of praying. Praying that we do get the right house, praying that we are patient and understanding throughout this process. And thanking God for my BIL who is truly great at what he does!
I have been talking about some of my goals and haven't written them all but thought I would share some now.
1. Buy a house.
2. Buy a calendar and put all friends and families birthdays in it and send a card to everyone next year!
3. Write a thank you card once a week for a year(at least).
4. Not yell for 7 days.
5. Do something sweet for my husband everyday for a week.
6. Exercise 5 days of the week for a month.
7. Make 1 craft a month for a year.
8. Set boundaries with certain people.
9. Have alone time with each kid once a week for a month.
10. Read my bible everyday.
This is a tenth of my goals. The ones that say for a week, for a month, for a year, my goal with those is to make a habit for a lifetime. I will share more soon and mark them off as they get done.
On some more exciting news. We started the process for buying a home this week. Oh man am I far beyond excited. My BIL is an awesome realtor. I am glad we have someone we trust helping us out! We did things a little backwards and already found a home we LOVE. We saw a couple and then BAM! This house is perfect for us. It has 5 beds. Its 3000 sq feet and a super great price. Its 1.28 acres also. Its far enough out to be country but close enough I don't have to drive an hour to get to town. Its closer to Joe's work and still in a good school district. It also has an unfinished basement with tons of possibility.
The scariest part of this whole thing is the loan we are going for takes a while. =/ So I'm nervous I will get my heart broken. But this loan will save us a lot of money. Anyways, I am just excited to get the process done. I am so glad we finally get to own. I will be doing lots of praying. Praying that we do get the right house, praying that we are patient and understanding throughout this process. And thanking God for my BIL who is truly great at what he does!
I have been talking about some of my goals and haven't written them all but thought I would share some now.
1. Buy a house.
2. Buy a calendar and put all friends and families birthdays in it and send a card to everyone next year!
3. Write a thank you card once a week for a year(at least).
4. Not yell for 7 days.
5. Do something sweet for my husband everyday for a week.
6. Exercise 5 days of the week for a month.
7. Make 1 craft a month for a year.
8. Set boundaries with certain people.
9. Have alone time with each kid once a week for a month.
10. Read my bible everyday.
This is a tenth of my goals. The ones that say for a week, for a month, for a year, my goal with those is to make a habit for a lifetime. I will share more soon and mark them off as they get done.
Monday, September 27, 2010
Exciting New Competition!
So this is Friday's post I never posted it...
I have done my weigh in drum roll please.......146.9!!! Yay! I love it. So 21.9 lbs to go to reach my goal weight. I finally convinced my hubby to be in a little fun competition. To lose 20 lbs by Dec.6, which is his birthday. I am feeling great today already. Woke up at 6am and did Zumba, thanks to an awesome friend!!! I am now planning how I am going to stay moving and what I should eat for the next 10.5 weeks! This is gonna be awesome and I WILL beat my husband!!! He is really good at competition and usually wins. But he needs to move over because the weight loss champion is here. =)
This is what I am adding to it...
Well my good friend and her husband have joined our competition. I think it helps motivate me to try harder so this is going to be fun. I do have one concern. I always feels great at 125 lbs and my goal is to get back there. But, I am afraid my hips spread again with this last baby. I guess we will see when I get closer to my goal weight. If so I might have to stop because I would look pretty silly being a toothpick with big hips..no really, I have super skinny legs and thighs so that would be funny!
Here's a bit of a problem I am having with motivations these days. It is raining which means I have less energy and feel a little on the down side. I don't do well in the winter. I have been attempting to get up at 6am and exercising. That is happening less and less everyday. I already struggle as a morning person and now with the weather. I am not sure how to get more motivation for that. I can not ask my husband because he works long hard hours. Asking him to loose an extra hour of sleep would just be mean.
I have been busy doing my never ending to do list. Just the odds and ends that need to get done. Go to goodwill, drop off dishes at SIL's house, etc. I already have a busload of housework and children to manage. I am feeling pretty crazy here. But I can say that things around here are a lot more mellow. There is more of a routine and that's great. The baby is in a transition of not being a baby to being a toddler. I try working on words and sounds and body parts but he doesn't seem to be learning most of it. Even though I know he is learning most of it and keeping it, it is hard to figure out what to do with him!
My week consists of housecleaning, grocery shopping, cheer practice, counseling appt, and knocking at least 5 things off my list. What does your week look like?
I have done my weigh in drum roll please.......146.9!!! Yay! I love it. So 21.9 lbs to go to reach my goal weight. I finally convinced my hubby to be in a little fun competition. To lose 20 lbs by Dec.6, which is his birthday. I am feeling great today already. Woke up at 6am and did Zumba, thanks to an awesome friend!!! I am now planning how I am going to stay moving and what I should eat for the next 10.5 weeks! This is gonna be awesome and I WILL beat my husband!!! He is really good at competition and usually wins. But he needs to move over because the weight loss champion is here. =)
This is what I am adding to it...
Well my good friend and her husband have joined our competition. I think it helps motivate me to try harder so this is going to be fun. I do have one concern. I always feels great at 125 lbs and my goal is to get back there. But, I am afraid my hips spread again with this last baby. I guess we will see when I get closer to my goal weight. If so I might have to stop because I would look pretty silly being a toothpick with big hips..no really, I have super skinny legs and thighs so that would be funny!
Here's a bit of a problem I am having with motivations these days. It is raining which means I have less energy and feel a little on the down side. I don't do well in the winter. I have been attempting to get up at 6am and exercising. That is happening less and less everyday. I already struggle as a morning person and now with the weather. I am not sure how to get more motivation for that. I can not ask my husband because he works long hard hours. Asking him to loose an extra hour of sleep would just be mean.
I have been busy doing my never ending to do list. Just the odds and ends that need to get done. Go to goodwill, drop off dishes at SIL's house, etc. I already have a busload of housework and children to manage. I am feeling pretty crazy here. But I can say that things around here are a lot more mellow. There is more of a routine and that's great. The baby is in a transition of not being a baby to being a toddler. I try working on words and sounds and body parts but he doesn't seem to be learning most of it. Even though I know he is learning most of it and keeping it, it is hard to figure out what to do with him!
My week consists of housecleaning, grocery shopping, cheer practice, counseling appt, and knocking at least 5 things off my list. What does your week look like?
Thursday, September 23, 2010
Day 35, or is it day 36?
I am not counting these days to healthy, I guess. I am feeling good about how far I come. Some days I am hard on myself about not "being better" at it. But I am proud. I successfully turn down the sweets my husband offers me...except last night ;). I ate a very small piece of pie that he bought. I felt I deserved it. I continue to use veggies in anything I can, in any way I can. hehe. I have been successful at getting all the older kids to like something healthy TWICE this week!!! This is a huge accomplishment because I have 2 extremely picky eaters and one who just doesn't like "new" stuff. I have been food processing veggies and putting them in turkey meatloaf, spaghetti sauce and anything else that looks like it could "hide" something. We ate Israeli cous cous with an assortment of healthy "things" in it last night and they loved it. It definitely put a smile on my face.
My biggest struggle is to stay moving. I get stuck on the computer or just want to sit down after doing chores..how do I pry myself up??? It is a self-discipline thing, I know, I know. And getting up at 6 is working about half the week. Sometimes my alarm doesn't go off and sometimes I press snooze and then off and never get up. I knew this would be hard for me. I have always been a night owl and far from a morning person. I would do these things during nap except that it's finally me time and I really want to read the bible and pray during that time and I don't feel that should be given up for a little exercise.
So, progress is slow but I feel I am giving a good effort. And very very slowly I am seeing a drop in weight.
My biggest struggle is to stay moving. I get stuck on the computer or just want to sit down after doing chores..how do I pry myself up??? It is a self-discipline thing, I know, I know. And getting up at 6 is working about half the week. Sometimes my alarm doesn't go off and sometimes I press snooze and then off and never get up. I knew this would be hard for me. I have always been a night owl and far from a morning person. I would do these things during nap except that it's finally me time and I really want to read the bible and pray during that time and I don't feel that should be given up for a little exercise.
So, progress is slow but I feel I am giving a good effort. And very very slowly I am seeing a drop in weight.
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