Well, it's September 1st and no baby yet. It is officially a safe zone as of last Saturday. I am 37 wks and 3 days. Last Wed. I had my cervix checked and I was almost 2 cm. dilated. As of Saturday I have taken as many long walks that I can and mentally trying to prepare myself for labor. I am also mentally thinking my baby out. Haha, I know that sounds ridiculous but I am just thinking about my baby coming out and how strong I am going to be. My braxton hicks are getting stronger, so I think for sure my body is preparing. I have decided to have my midwife "sweep" my membranes if I am a 4 or more. If so next time I am writing it will be my brith story. My anxiety is running high lately and sleep has been strange, to say the least. In the last week my energy level has dropped. Some days its just really hard to even get out of bed. Most nights here it goes...I get into bed about 10:30 we watch a little tv, or whatever. Then around 12:30 I attempt sleeping. yeah most of the time I toss and turn and if that happens I know the night is going to be long and tiring. Most of the time I do not fall asleep until 3 sometimes even 4 am. Then I wake up an hr and a half later to pee and this continues till waking up. If I get to sleep earlier then around 6 am I sleep hard until about 9am. i do my thing in the morning. Clean what I have to then around 3pm I get so tired I feel like falling over. I rest for an hr to an hr and a half. It has been draining to me. I wonder sometimes if its my bodies way of getting prepared for baby. Last night I finally got decent sleep I did wake up frequently to go pee but I slept from around 12:30 till 9:15 am. Now off to do laundry and vacuum. I sure am hoping this is the last vacuum for a while =). That would be so sweet. Haylee is determined to make sure this baby does not come until after her orientation tomorrow morning.
So in our everyday life....I am ready for school to start!!! It has been difficult these last couple weeks to keep the girls entertained. They are fighting a little more and with the energy level so low and finances at a minimum right now, it is definetly difficult. Auntie Mary brought over a dollhouse the other day that kept them quiet and occupied for 5 hrs. Now all they do is fight over the coolest room and that is pretty frustrating. However, I have started something new at dinner time that I think was an excellent idea. We go around the table and talk about the nice things that everyone did that day. First we all do one girl, then switch to the other. You could defietly tell that it makes an impact on Hanna. Her face lights up when we praise her for her good deeds of the day. I think she needs it most. I am hoping that it will inspire them to try and do nice things for one another as well. Wish me luck and hope for safe delivery. And I sure hope God is with the midwives on the day of delivery.
